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Now that he's gone, I feel like I'm a senior citizen who gave away her life savings over the phone. And this is the crux: I never in my life believed in someone as much as I believed in him. The shame is overwhelming.

Emma Forrest

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Emma Forrest
Age: 47
Born: 1976
Born: December 26
Film Director
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